I know a lot of people are probably wondering where I’ve been. My travels throughout the Middle East were eye-opening, inspiring, at times painful and traumatic, and ultimately, a chapter in my life that has now closed.
I’ve been trying to settle down in the United States for the past year. I stayed a short while in South Florida to gather my bearings, but couldn’t deal with all the insane people that live there. It’s true what they say about “Florida Man”.
The more things change, the more they stay the same. Despite my efforts to settle down, it’s become a regular routine for me to throw all of my earthly possessions into a Uhaul truck. Finding a good discount always helps, fortunately.
I still haven’t found myself. I am completely without direction. Maybe I’ll go into the wild and live from the land. Maybe I’ll start my own farm and raise pigs. Maybe I’ll join a drilling operation in North Dakota and work with my hands. Maybe I’ll try my hand at busking and depend upon the kindness of strangers, as a sort of sociological experiment.
It’s scary sometimes. But it’s also very liberating. So many people live their lives in fear. Fear of where their next paycheck will come from, fear of oppressive governments, fear of their health and safety, or even the mundane “first-world” feel of getting stuck in a rut. It feels like you’re drowning, as though there is no hope in sight.
This is the sort of fear I vow to conquer. I can’t say for sure where this road ultimately leads for me, but I can tell you that it won’t a journey of bondage and guilt. No shame for disappointing others, no nagging worries about making mistakes. You must fight by taking chances. Because ultimately, that fear can paralyze you. It makes you afraid to make those risks, and without risks, there are no rewards.
If you’re reading this now, and you feel stuck, I implore you to fight. Don’t accept a circumstance of wanting. There is always more you can do. There is always time and energy to strive for your dreams. And you must have a dream. Maybe this all sounds fanciful, like a corny motivational speech. But it’s the truth. No matter who you are in this world, you must have a dream. And there is always value in hope. Cherish it. Nurture it. FIGHT for it.